Humble.

In order that God may heal us and bind up our wounds (Jeremiah 30:17), we must allow Him entry in to the depths of the souls that He created within us; the souls that we took in our youth during our disobedience, these souls clothed with flesh; now new, but first corrupt by the war that rages within us .

And we fight the war either with weapons we create or with weapons in the name of the Lord (Ephesians 6:10-18), either for one side or the other (Mathew 12:30). I believe we are either on the defensive or on the offensive.

When I could watch from the sidelines no more, I spent much of my life on the defensive, protecting the inmost places of my heart from rejection and pain, from aloneness and from disappointment. You might be quite surprised to discover the amount of effort it takes to convince oneself of how little you care, to ice ones heart until its numb, or to push X away, before X is taken away. These weapons we create not only push healing further from sight, but can be taken and used against us.

When said battle is over, when the smoke clears and the fire dies down, you never like what you find. Because what's left is an unfortunate mound of weapons of mass destruction, maybe some cannons and machine guns, and a soldier, more wounded than he was before, still clinging to what he was protecting. Underneath the mound you'll find his delicate bruised and torn heart. And healing never comes, because it can't move past the weapons piled on top of it.

By humbly offering ourselves to God, we commit that we would endure whatever He would inflict upon us, that we may be healed by His goodness and Love.

We often overlook what it means to humble ourselves. Humble, low or inferior; to reduce the power of. Humiliate: to cause shame to, to hurt the pride of.

When we humble ourselves, when we put aside the weapons we've been using to protect our hearts from humiliation and admit that God is God, it is then, then that we will be healed.